holy crap I cant believe that it is already finals week at school, this year is going by fast, thats good thing but also a scary thing. please pray for every student that you know to give them strength, the great thing is that after finals ppl get to go home for a well needed break, pray for safty.
thanks everyone
peaceout
Monday, December 10, 2007
Monday, December 03, 2007
Something from church
Last nite I went to The Stirring, and Nate, the pastor was teaching, he was teaching about marriage and how God needs to be the center of it.
But off that he was talking about in Exodus and how Israelites were slaves and then were freed and went into the wilderness. Then he said this, "Wilderness was so hard for them sometimes, they wanted to go back to slavery."
For some reason this really hit me, it was like sometimes it feels so hard to follow Jesus, that sin is so much easier to fall into. I think that it was something that he just kinda said and that was it but for some reason this really hit me, and I think should be thought about more.
To see that sometimes this relationship is hard with Christ, and that it feels so easy to just want to go back to our "old" ways, and just forget it.
I think its OK that I ask this question and all, its just I don't know if I have an answer at all about the question. Will we honestly get to a point where sin doesn't entice us?
Im still thinking about this, I just have to go to class now!!!
But off that he was talking about in Exodus and how Israelites were slaves and then were freed and went into the wilderness. Then he said this, "Wilderness was so hard for them sometimes, they wanted to go back to slavery."
For some reason this really hit me, it was like sometimes it feels so hard to follow Jesus, that sin is so much easier to fall into. I think that it was something that he just kinda said and that was it but for some reason this really hit me, and I think should be thought about more.
To see that sometimes this relationship is hard with Christ, and that it feels so easy to just want to go back to our "old" ways, and just forget it.
I think its OK that I ask this question and all, its just I don't know if I have an answer at all about the question. Will we honestly get to a point where sin doesn't entice us?
Im still thinking about this, I just have to go to class now!!!
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
a.k.a "Lost"
Chapter 5- This chapter is all about just being able to talk to people, not about major topics or trying to convert someone, but really just small talk. It is something that everyone can do and that it is something we do naturally and on a daily basis. The thing is we just do not think that it is really worth anything, but more just something of life, but not part of our life for God. I really like how Jim is really stressing that small talk is something that can mean so much to someone, that giving them your time and by the motives you really have are great. I also thought the part where you invite “missing people” to something that Christians are helping others with is a great thing. I had never thought of that, all the time you think about going and doing things just with the church body, but to invite them makes so much sense, this really stood out to me.
Chapter 6- This was all about listening, and asking questions. That one way that we can really have others respect us is to just be able to listen to what they have to say. That after asking a question to wait for a few seconds and let the person have a time to think and respond. Also that asking questions is a great way to have a conversation with someone, and not in a rude tone, but just generally asking about how they are and things of that nature, and being able to really listen to what they have to say.
Chapter 7- This chapter was all about being able to do what is doable. This at first kind of sounds confusing but in the end it makes a lot of sense. This is that we need to make goals that we know we will be able to keep and not try to make a huge deal out of not doing something grand. He talks about a nurse that just plants a seed in someone who she had helped while a man was in the hospital, and that she prayed for him behind his back. I really liked how that all she did was pray and was there for him, and that later in life something grew out of the seed she planted. I guess it almost takes a lot of stress off of us when we know that all we can do is be ourselves and just do what God wants us to do, and the Big Man will take it from there for us.
Chapter 8- Lastly this chapter was mainly about how we need to take religion and almost give it a face lift. To show those around and to ourselves that the view of Christians needs to change, and that we are not the stereotypical Christian that we are made out to be. And that Jesus was not in this world to combat others about who He was and all, but really to show love to others. Jim has a line that really I loved, “Who has the greatest influence with this gay student—those wanting to correct or those trying to connect?” This is something that really needs to be a main topic in the life of a Christian as I see it in our society today.
Chapter 6- This was all about listening, and asking questions. That one way that we can really have others respect us is to just be able to listen to what they have to say. That after asking a question to wait for a few seconds and let the person have a time to think and respond. Also that asking questions is a great way to have a conversation with someone, and not in a rude tone, but just generally asking about how they are and things of that nature, and being able to really listen to what they have to say.
Chapter 7- This chapter was all about being able to do what is doable. This at first kind of sounds confusing but in the end it makes a lot of sense. This is that we need to make goals that we know we will be able to keep and not try to make a huge deal out of not doing something grand. He talks about a nurse that just plants a seed in someone who she had helped while a man was in the hospital, and that she prayed for him behind his back. I really liked how that all she did was pray and was there for him, and that later in life something grew out of the seed she planted. I guess it almost takes a lot of stress off of us when we know that all we can do is be ourselves and just do what God wants us to do, and the Big Man will take it from there for us.
Chapter 8- Lastly this chapter was mainly about how we need to take religion and almost give it a face lift. To show those around and to ourselves that the view of Christians needs to change, and that we are not the stereotypical Christian that we are made out to be. And that Jesus was not in this world to combat others about who He was and all, but really to show love to others. Jim has a line that really I loved, “Who has the greatest influence with this gay student—those wanting to correct or those trying to connect?” This is something that really needs to be a main topic in the life of a Christian as I see it in our society today.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Is my "Christian" school any different than your "Secular" school
The title of this one ain't that catchy or anything, its just been something on my mind for a while now. What is the difference of me going to a christian college or a non-Christan college. Right now it doesn't look like a lot. I know you can find all the same things in this school than any other school around.
I guess it feels like our motives here are the same as anywhere else, yes we do have a religious backing, but don't most students who are going to school now have some sort of belief that stand for? Why is it that we have to go out and almost try to sound like were better than others because hey look I'm at a Christan college, I'm way more holy than you are.
I guess i just don't see why that at a secular college can i not get a degree in pastoral studies or something with a Biblical background? yes they may have some classes on religion, but if we are to go out and make disciples (living with people who don't know Christ and just having a normal friendship with them). I really feel like this "bubble" that we have really does suck.
Another thing that bothers me is the other day in our chapel the president of the school was talking, and he made it clear that all we need at the school is "enrollment, enrollment, enrollment" that we just need more people. Sounds kinda funny to me, the other day reading in a.k.a. Lost, it said that maybe we need to stop going a mile wide and an inch deep with followers to know about Christ. And this is making more and more sense everyday.
I guess it feels like our motives here are the same as anywhere else, yes we do have a religious backing, but don't most students who are going to school now have some sort of belief that stand for? Why is it that we have to go out and almost try to sound like were better than others because hey look I'm at a Christan college, I'm way more holy than you are.
I guess i just don't see why that at a secular college can i not get a degree in pastoral studies or something with a Biblical background? yes they may have some classes on religion, but if we are to go out and make disciples (living with people who don't know Christ and just having a normal friendship with them). I really feel like this "bubble" that we have really does suck.
Another thing that bothers me is the other day in our chapel the president of the school was talking, and he made it clear that all we need at the school is "enrollment, enrollment, enrollment" that we just need more people. Sounds kinda funny to me, the other day reading in a.k.a. Lost, it said that maybe we need to stop going a mile wide and an inch deep with followers to know about Christ. And this is making more and more sense everyday.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
a.k.a "Lost" by Jim Henderson
For a class I just starting reading a new book, and surprisingly it is actually not that bad at all. So far I have read the first 4 chapters and they are pretty amazing for sure, its a great lil book and a really quick read.
Chapter one- Being the first chapter in the book it seemed like it went by so quick, but the whole time reading it, I felt as if I was taking every word of it in. The chapter is just simply talking about giving some of your time to those who are around you. To give them your attention and really listen to what they have to say, that just listening is something that is almost a lost art, and something that we need to do; and is easy to do. Another thing was the ordinary attempts, and these are simply just giving away your free attention. Just offering to pray for someone when they least expect it, or to pray behind someones back. This seems like such a simple task because it is, we just need to give our time away to others.
Chapter two- There are two major points in this chapter the first being to change a person's life you must first change their metaphor. This is simply stating that if you change the way that we look at people we will act different towards them. The way that we do this is with the people that do not know God, instead of calling them “lost,” we should more likely call them missing. That to call someone lost is to not have any love for them. But when you love those around you, and want to interact with them, and be with them, its a lo0t easier to do these if we just consider them “missing.” This way we know that we are looking to help and be with them, and find them. So that they know they are not lost, forever, just missing.
Chapter three- This chapter is titled ordinary makes a comeback, which is honestly just the simple thought of the whole chapter; about how being ordinary is something Jesus has always been a part of. It is weird to think of the people in the Bible times as just regular ordinary people, but in all actuality this is all they really are; there is nothing super special about them and they were just living the life that they saw Jesus living. I think that were to focused on the final goal of “converting” someone and not just going on a ride of life with them. That we always have to have an alternative motive, and that needs to change in our minds. But something that really stood out was when Henderson said, “when we love people, we take risks and do irrational things.” I really see that this is the movement that we need, just to love others, and that once we start doing that things will just to begin to happen in our relationships with them.
Chapter four- The Gospel according to you, is all about how we just need to be ourselves in life, and conversations will spark up that we never thought were possible. We need to preach as if were serving and serve as if were preaching; what this means to be yourself, be human, be normal, be real, and be intentional. With this were able to expand Jesus's kingdom further into the hearts of the people Jesus misses. We just need to be open in being ourselves and the situations and opportunities to talk to someone will open up. This is something that can be done very simply, how hard can it really be to just be ourselves.
Chapter one- Being the first chapter in the book it seemed like it went by so quick, but the whole time reading it, I felt as if I was taking every word of it in. The chapter is just simply talking about giving some of your time to those who are around you. To give them your attention and really listen to what they have to say, that just listening is something that is almost a lost art, and something that we need to do; and is easy to do. Another thing was the ordinary attempts, and these are simply just giving away your free attention. Just offering to pray for someone when they least expect it, or to pray behind someones back. This seems like such a simple task because it is, we just need to give our time away to others.
Chapter two- There are two major points in this chapter the first being to change a person's life you must first change their metaphor. This is simply stating that if you change the way that we look at people we will act different towards them. The way that we do this is with the people that do not know God, instead of calling them “lost,” we should more likely call them missing. That to call someone lost is to not have any love for them. But when you love those around you, and want to interact with them, and be with them, its a lo0t easier to do these if we just consider them “missing.” This way we know that we are looking to help and be with them, and find them. So that they know they are not lost, forever, just missing.
Chapter three- This chapter is titled ordinary makes a comeback, which is honestly just the simple thought of the whole chapter; about how being ordinary is something Jesus has always been a part of. It is weird to think of the people in the Bible times as just regular ordinary people, but in all actuality this is all they really are; there is nothing super special about them and they were just living the life that they saw Jesus living. I think that were to focused on the final goal of “converting” someone and not just going on a ride of life with them. That we always have to have an alternative motive, and that needs to change in our minds. But something that really stood out was when Henderson said, “when we love people, we take risks and do irrational things.” I really see that this is the movement that we need, just to love others, and that once we start doing that things will just to begin to happen in our relationships with them.
Chapter four- The Gospel according to you, is all about how we just need to be ourselves in life, and conversations will spark up that we never thought were possible. We need to preach as if were serving and serve as if were preaching; what this means to be yourself, be human, be normal, be real, and be intentional. With this were able to expand Jesus's kingdom further into the hearts of the people Jesus misses. We just need to be open in being ourselves and the situations and opportunities to talk to someone will open up. This is something that can be done very simply, how hard can it really be to just be ourselves.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
How far can we push the Holy Spirit?
I have a class here at Simpson University that is called Spiritual Formation in the Church. We have been reading a book by Dallas Willard called Hearing God. The book at first I was very questionable about it but I am starting to like it, but back to the story. So our teacher has been talkin a lot about how he was at this conference and was praying for the people around him (which he and everyone else was told to do by the director) and that while praying to look for a symbol or picture, word, phrase that comes to mind. Then to ask the person that your praying with if that relates to anything. So I knew it was a matter of time before we did it in class, and today was the day.
So to show us how it was done, the teacher did a demo run with another student, and came up with some picture in his head and saw if it meant anything to the student and it didnt. So he tells us to go ahead and try it out. So I prayed for some sort of something to come to me for the guy i was praying for.... and I got nothing.
First of all maybe I just wasnt ready to have a symbol come to me for this guy I was praying for, but I really saw this as a time of really trying to push the Holy Spirit into doing something for me when Im pretty much demanding it. I mean i have never done this b4 and im pretty sceptical right then, but how can a class of 25 of us, all the sudden recieve these items in our minds for other people right away. I mean yes i think it really could have happened and i know God could do that.
It felt like that whatever people were saying were so broad that it could have worked in almost everyones life. But I cant say that it wasnt God showing them those things. Maybe its just me whos not in the right state of mind, but I really thought that why do we think that if we pray to see something, God's going to show us something, maybe thats me just thinkin wrong. But then why isnt this taught as soon as im in the church.
Overall I thought that we were really almost fortune telling, or possibly it could have been the same as the pet doctor that was on tv who could talk to their animals, anything is possible if i know any context.
But who is it me to say that God didnt show those others items, I think that would be awsome.
It just right now in my walk with Him bothers me.
So to show us how it was done, the teacher did a demo run with another student, and came up with some picture in his head and saw if it meant anything to the student and it didnt. So he tells us to go ahead and try it out. So I prayed for some sort of something to come to me for the guy i was praying for.... and I got nothing.
First of all maybe I just wasnt ready to have a symbol come to me for this guy I was praying for, but I really saw this as a time of really trying to push the Holy Spirit into doing something for me when Im pretty much demanding it. I mean i have never done this b4 and im pretty sceptical right then, but how can a class of 25 of us, all the sudden recieve these items in our minds for other people right away. I mean yes i think it really could have happened and i know God could do that.
It felt like that whatever people were saying were so broad that it could have worked in almost everyones life. But I cant say that it wasnt God showing them those things. Maybe its just me whos not in the right state of mind, but I really thought that why do we think that if we pray to see something, God's going to show us something, maybe thats me just thinkin wrong. But then why isnt this taught as soon as im in the church.
Overall I thought that we were really almost fortune telling, or possibly it could have been the same as the pet doctor that was on tv who could talk to their animals, anything is possible if i know any context.
But who is it me to say that God didnt show those others items, I think that would be awsome.
It just right now in my walk with Him bothers me.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Great Divorce
ok so last weekend i finished reading the Great Divorce by C.S.Lewis. And let me tell you that was one crazy book as i had said before. It really opens your brain to something that you have never really pictued before. It is just about a story of a man, who is actually in purgitory, and the reality that he is in is just so off the wall. The thought of how where he is actually relating to hell and heaven was just unbelieveable. I deffinitly will be reading another of his books, cause i need to for school, but because it was so interesting.
It just really puts a twist on my thoughts, not that i am changing my whole life around this book, but it just makes me wonder what restrants have i put on the stories i have heard so many times in the Bible, and what i guess those stories could be.
God is so freakin awsome, Im super glad hes my God.
I wish i would stop being so lazy!! and for all of us, because i cant say everyone when im not doing anything either. (dang it)
peaceout
It just really puts a twist on my thoughts, not that i am changing my whole life around this book, but it just makes me wonder what restrants have i put on the stories i have heard so many times in the Bible, and what i guess those stories could be.
God is so freakin awsome, Im super glad hes my God.
I wish i would stop being so lazy!! and for all of us, because i cant say everyone when im not doing anything either. (dang it)
peaceout
Thursday, September 20, 2007
C.S. Lewis
ok so today i started my first ever C S Lewis book, The Great Divorce, and let me tell you it is crazy so far. I am only really into the 6th chapter but the thing is off the wall crazy. I dont know where Lewis is gettin his thoughts from, they are so off the wall its just wierd right now. I really hope that the rest of the book is this great and that maybe i start to understand a little more of what he is talkin about cause right now im lost...
well i just needed to write this down and all, cause its crazy good, go out and get it!!!!
pecaeout
well i just needed to write this down and all, cause its crazy good, go out and get it!!!!
pecaeout
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
life
life is crazy, i still dont understand it and i dont think that i ever will. so many times in my short life so far you think somethings going one way and in all reality its going a totally different way. (ie life is crazy)
sometimes it feels like you cant be under any more pressure or stress in life, and then something else gets piled on. this reminds me of a verse though that i have always known in my heart from since i was a little kid, 1 Corinthians 10:13 i really like the Message version cause it says tests at the begginning of it, and i really do think that is a part of it also.
So i thank God for always being there for me and that i know i always have Him there when im falling he will be there for me, always. what an amazing person.
A big theme that i have been seeing in school this few weeks is to stop worrian about crap, because there is so much that you can worry about, that it will take up your whole life and then you wont be able to live, youll just worry. I love God, what an amazing man.
peaceout
sometimes it feels like you cant be under any more pressure or stress in life, and then something else gets piled on. this reminds me of a verse though that i have always known in my heart from since i was a little kid, 1 Corinthians 10:13 i really like the Message version cause it says tests at the begginning of it, and i really do think that is a part of it also.
So i thank God for always being there for me and that i know i always have Him there when im falling he will be there for me, always. what an amazing person.
A big theme that i have been seeing in school this few weeks is to stop worrian about crap, because there is so much that you can worry about, that it will take up your whole life and then you wont be able to live, youll just worry. I love God, what an amazing man.
peaceout
Sunday, September 09, 2007
cross country
ok today was my first cross country meet of the season and lets just say it sucked!!! i didnt take last though!!(woot woot) its funny (?) that we/I put myself to so much effort of running to pretty much just get humiliated. But for some reason i still get out there and run in my tiny little shorts and take almost last.
its funny that we all go out and run in a circle and do all this work just to end up in the same spot we left, and then drive our car back home and all. I dont really get the whole point to it, but i know im supose to go out and run.
Sometimes i feel like this is our journey with God also, that we do what we think is a lot of great stuff to be helping ourselves out, or others, and actually its just a big circle and were ending up in the same spot as where we are starting from... I guess i get nervous that being at college that im not learning enough or growing. and it makes me wonder about a lot, but i know that God is always there for me.
From the begginning of the race where i start to the end, he is there, and i know that if i take the wrong path he is still there waiting me to find the right one again. I just hope im on the right path and not really just lost in life.
yep thats my ramble for now, maybe ill think of something finally smart to say one day.
peaceout
its funny that we all go out and run in a circle and do all this work just to end up in the same spot we left, and then drive our car back home and all. I dont really get the whole point to it, but i know im supose to go out and run.
Sometimes i feel like this is our journey with God also, that we do what we think is a lot of great stuff to be helping ourselves out, or others, and actually its just a big circle and were ending up in the same spot as where we are starting from... I guess i get nervous that being at college that im not learning enough or growing. and it makes me wonder about a lot, but i know that God is always there for me.
From the begginning of the race where i start to the end, he is there, and i know that if i take the wrong path he is still there waiting me to find the right one again. I just hope im on the right path and not really just lost in life.
yep thats my ramble for now, maybe ill think of something finally smart to say one day.
peaceout
Sunday, September 02, 2007
back to schoool
today i have offically moved back into a dorm and am now living at my school. it was a hard day to leave michelle (my girl) and know that we will only see each other on certain breaks and some long weekends.
its funny going from your summer vacation back to school, where its a christian school, things are just so much different than the things that go on in the real world with how things at my work went this summer. at times i almost feel as if being stuck in the school, that i dont feel as if i am being as much as a follower of God as i should be. when i was at work this summer, i could really see how God has changed my life and how i see the world as something that is not as perminent as others believe. I thank God for the gifts he has given me, and the things he showed me this summer. But i feel as if i have slowly fallen away from God this summer, and i dont want to have this roller coster ride from school and summer vacation.
life is hard right now and im very well off compared to some ppl, but i know that i can get through it for sure.
so school has started and im really going to enjoy learing this year to help me in the long run for sure, its crazy to think that God has this great plan and that im part of it. i am scared but excited to see where my life is going for sure!!!
its funny going from your summer vacation back to school, where its a christian school, things are just so much different than the things that go on in the real world with how things at my work went this summer. at times i almost feel as if being stuck in the school, that i dont feel as if i am being as much as a follower of God as i should be. when i was at work this summer, i could really see how God has changed my life and how i see the world as something that is not as perminent as others believe. I thank God for the gifts he has given me, and the things he showed me this summer. But i feel as if i have slowly fallen away from God this summer, and i dont want to have this roller coster ride from school and summer vacation.
life is hard right now and im very well off compared to some ppl, but i know that i can get through it for sure.
so school has started and im really going to enjoy learing this year to help me in the long run for sure, its crazy to think that God has this great plan and that im part of it. i am scared but excited to see where my life is going for sure!!!
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
cleaning and packing
today is a day that most kids here at college love and hate, why? cause we are all packing up to get away for the summer, so we love it, but everyone hates cleaning thats for sure, well all the normal ppl at least. so today i have been packing every once in a while and slowly gettin it all done. the worst part is that its like mid 90s right now, i never thought i would complain about nice weather. but its not the best to be working in a prison cell trying to clean it up for sure.
and later tonite i will be taking about my computer, and i will have no contact with the outside world for a while, except my phone. its a little scary for sure, but you got to do what you got to do. ill take one for the team this time.
well things are going good, and summer like it should be a good one, im excited, as long as it dosnt go by to quick.
ok well i should prolly be cleanin something
peaceout
and later tonite i will be taking about my computer, and i will have no contact with the outside world for a while, except my phone. its a little scary for sure, but you got to do what you got to do. ill take one for the team this time.
well things are going good, and summer like it should be a good one, im excited, as long as it dosnt go by to quick.
ok well i should prolly be cleanin something
peaceout
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Finals and School OVER!!
well today was my last day of school for the year woot woot. it is so wierd to think that next week ill be home and not have to worry about studian anymore, or stressin out about school, dang it will be good.
it was really awsome too because my last final was really hard for me at least and i think that i did pretty good for sure, i dont know really yet i just got to wait and see, but it felt good, and thats what really matters right??
well at least im done and now im on to the task of packing and cleaning, thats gonna suck cause i gots lots of crap for sure.
but for everyone who has helped me through the year, prayed for me, gave me stuff, thanks those things are really great, and thanks for being there for me even though i dont know who you are.
all i can say is im a step closer in fulfilling my vocation. (not vacation)
peaceout
it was really awsome too because my last final was really hard for me at least and i think that i did pretty good for sure, i dont know really yet i just got to wait and see, but it felt good, and thats what really matters right??
well at least im done and now im on to the task of packing and cleaning, thats gonna suck cause i gots lots of crap for sure.
but for everyone who has helped me through the year, prayed for me, gave me stuff, thanks those things are really great, and thanks for being there for me even though i dont know who you are.
all i can say is im a step closer in fulfilling my vocation. (not vacation)
peaceout
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Scot McKnight
Just mins ago during a break from studian for my last final of the year i finished my book by the title guy, The Jesus Creed. If you like any sort of reading, and like reading good books this is another one, it will really make you look at your life and see how your living. And also just a great way to analyze the Bible. The Shema is the baisis for the book, and everything is broke off of that.
it is amazing and there are some really great things in here for sure, im glad i read it and own it, Jesus Creed has deffinitly helped me grow, and relize things i have never seen before. So it was worth the 4.99 for it for sure.
GO Get IT!
peaeout
it is amazing and there are some really great things in here for sure, im glad i read it and own it, Jesus Creed has deffinitly helped me grow, and relize things i have never seen before. So it was worth the 4.99 for it for sure.
GO Get IT!
peaeout
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Finals week
Ok so its finals week here in Redding Cali.
Its so funny for me to see some ppl stressing so much about finals, but maybe its cause there a lot more worried about the grade than i am, but i think i am more in it for the class than the grade. ya i know it sucks if i get a bad grade, but i feel as if ppl worry to much on the grade and not what they are gettin out of the class.
but finals week has been pretty chill for me, i only have like 3 finals, cause 1 was a take home, easy and another was an essay, which sucked but still i dont have to study for it.
so things are going pretty good, cuase i still havent even taken one yet, i have 2 on wensday and 1 on thursday, so ya it will be good to be done for sure, but then i have to pack, and i got lots of crap for sure.
but nothing to bad, i made a vow that i wasnt going to play online games for the whole last 2 weeks, and i havent played em (even though someone beat my mini put score, Andrew!!) but let me tell ya, im gettin better at solitare. haha its not online so i thought i could still play it, my brain needs a rest every once in a while.
so overall finals week going smooth untill i get my grades back then we will really see how it went
peaceout
Its so funny for me to see some ppl stressing so much about finals, but maybe its cause there a lot more worried about the grade than i am, but i think i am more in it for the class than the grade. ya i know it sucks if i get a bad grade, but i feel as if ppl worry to much on the grade and not what they are gettin out of the class.
but finals week has been pretty chill for me, i only have like 3 finals, cause 1 was a take home, easy and another was an essay, which sucked but still i dont have to study for it.
so things are going pretty good, cuase i still havent even taken one yet, i have 2 on wensday and 1 on thursday, so ya it will be good to be done for sure, but then i have to pack, and i got lots of crap for sure.
but nothing to bad, i made a vow that i wasnt going to play online games for the whole last 2 weeks, and i havent played em (even though someone beat my mini put score, Andrew!!) but let me tell ya, im gettin better at solitare. haha its not online so i thought i could still play it, my brain needs a rest every once in a while.
so overall finals week going smooth untill i get my grades back then we will really see how it went
peaceout
books
i really like to read books that are theologically based, and really make me think, and i finished reading Postmodern by Tony Jones for a 2nd time about a 4 weeks ago. I think that reading a book is sometimes like watching a good movie for me, i could read through it a lot of times and stil get something new out of it. In Postmodern it really just open your eyes to something that seems so right, and very true to what i believe. SOME things are stil a little out there and im still trying to find the answer, or look at other people for other answrers. But if you really want to get a little intro on the whole postmodern thing its a really great book, and tony jones is super tight cuase he wirtes you back in emails. It was a great book for sure, ill make sure i use it for a resource later in my life, if my brother gives it back.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
pointless (ie this writing)
dang ok again its been way to long but now im really going to start writing more often cuase it will be more fun for me that way
today was the last official class of World Civ.2 and you know that there is a God on earth cause if not this day would have never come around thats for sure. Only one more test for the class and its over with, i didnt know i would be so happy to get out of a class.
Why is life so hard? (this is my topic for now)
Now for being in Bible college for a year some things in my life have really changed, my money has been well spent on some classes, and not so good on others. Coming to this college you see everyone in such happy good places in their lives, like this is heaven to some. And i guess it can be for some, but for me I feel alone here. It could be cause I dont have a lot of frineds, but maybe its cause i dont got the balls to go out and find them.
I have relized that being away from someone who you care for so much is hard too. I didnt even think i would be in a relationship going into college, i have always thought that i would be alone the rest of my life, even though i didnt ever want that, and then i found her, and shes amazing. Its just hard being away, and when things are rough, it feels like i have lost part of me. I wish i had a magic snap to make everything better, but i dont.
Some days i feel like the most slow person on campus, Bible wise and knowledge wise. I feel like i dont know crap, and maybe its cause im not hooked up with a church and get to be around kids which i dearly love to do, and its time for me to get back into it.
All i konw that even though my times are hard, God is still there for me, and always has been. When i got crap on my plate, I give it to Him, and it really helps. Its amazing to have a growing relationship with Him. at least i know where ever i am either spiritualy or emotioinaly he is always there for me. Thanks GOD!
well that was me ranting.
today was the last official class of World Civ.2 and you know that there is a God on earth cause if not this day would have never come around thats for sure. Only one more test for the class and its over with, i didnt know i would be so happy to get out of a class.
Why is life so hard? (this is my topic for now)
Now for being in Bible college for a year some things in my life have really changed, my money has been well spent on some classes, and not so good on others. Coming to this college you see everyone in such happy good places in their lives, like this is heaven to some. And i guess it can be for some, but for me I feel alone here. It could be cause I dont have a lot of frineds, but maybe its cause i dont got the balls to go out and find them.
I have relized that being away from someone who you care for so much is hard too. I didnt even think i would be in a relationship going into college, i have always thought that i would be alone the rest of my life, even though i didnt ever want that, and then i found her, and shes amazing. Its just hard being away, and when things are rough, it feels like i have lost part of me. I wish i had a magic snap to make everything better, but i dont.
Some days i feel like the most slow person on campus, Bible wise and knowledge wise. I feel like i dont know crap, and maybe its cause im not hooked up with a church and get to be around kids which i dearly love to do, and its time for me to get back into it.
All i konw that even though my times are hard, God is still there for me, and always has been. When i got crap on my plate, I give it to Him, and it really helps. Its amazing to have a growing relationship with Him. at least i know where ever i am either spiritualy or emotioinaly he is always there for me. Thanks GOD!
well that was me ranting.
Monday, February 05, 2007
way to long
you know that it has been way to long if you cant remember your password or login stuff ill tell ya that much, but shortly i should be writing a real thing for this cause i have recently finished my book Postmodern by Tony Jones, now im going through it agian. Hopefully Ill understand it more
peace
out
peace
out
Saturday, January 13, 2007
its been a while
i know that i have such an abundent amount of readers on this so sorry for taking so long to write one this for sure. i dont know really what to write about at the moment casue there has been a lot since the last write so i guess ill just start something.
i think this post will be about postmodern
im reading a book by tony jones that is really good called postmodern, now this post isnt about that its more about me. It has been really hard to comprehend some of the things that tony has been talkin about for sure. I think that the main reason is that i was born and raised in the same church all my life, and its really hard for me to just get over some of the things i have know was right all my life. i think that the funny thing is that the last few years of highschool when we got a youth pastor at our church he was teaching us how to be or show us that we are postmodern even though he never really said he was doing it to us.
now i know that some things were still the "modern" styles of teaching at least i think becuase it talks about it in the book, but its really wierd. For some reason the postmodern thinking for being a youth pastor is the way i want to go, just there are a few things in the way.
1) im still learning a ton about it and i feel as if sometimes the things i read or am told about are just so over my head i think to myself how am i ever really understand this?
2) its really hard to change the way that i have been thinking all my life, and i know that everyone says you cant change your ways after a certain age and i really think thats gettin close, but i know i can, its just hard.
3) at our school postmodern is very looked down upon, now im not bashing them or anything like that but its just kinda funny that the postmodern view is to accept everyone for whatever they believe and i really like that, and here is my prof sayin how stupid it is.
(sidenote: i emaild tony jones about this, like what should i do if a teacher says something like this. and even though i had a great idea what he was going to tell me i thought maybe he will say something else. but i was right he said you just sit there pretty much and you dont get red in the face, cause if i did do that i would be just like him. now i may be doing it right here and now, but i just had to tell someone so i might as well tell the internet.)
4) its hard to try to start thinkin postmodern when were still in the shift from a modern time to a new time, and even though maybe postmodern time isnt the perfect thing, i think its the best thing for right now.
ok thats all i have to say for now, i feel really stupid
bye
i think this post will be about postmodern
im reading a book by tony jones that is really good called postmodern, now this post isnt about that its more about me. It has been really hard to comprehend some of the things that tony has been talkin about for sure. I think that the main reason is that i was born and raised in the same church all my life, and its really hard for me to just get over some of the things i have know was right all my life. i think that the funny thing is that the last few years of highschool when we got a youth pastor at our church he was teaching us how to be or show us that we are postmodern even though he never really said he was doing it to us.
now i know that some things were still the "modern" styles of teaching at least i think becuase it talks about it in the book, but its really wierd. For some reason the postmodern thinking for being a youth pastor is the way i want to go, just there are a few things in the way.
1) im still learning a ton about it and i feel as if sometimes the things i read or am told about are just so over my head i think to myself how am i ever really understand this?
2) its really hard to change the way that i have been thinking all my life, and i know that everyone says you cant change your ways after a certain age and i really think thats gettin close, but i know i can, its just hard.
3) at our school postmodern is very looked down upon, now im not bashing them or anything like that but its just kinda funny that the postmodern view is to accept everyone for whatever they believe and i really like that, and here is my prof sayin how stupid it is.
(sidenote: i emaild tony jones about this, like what should i do if a teacher says something like this. and even though i had a great idea what he was going to tell me i thought maybe he will say something else. but i was right he said you just sit there pretty much and you dont get red in the face, cause if i did do that i would be just like him. now i may be doing it right here and now, but i just had to tell someone so i might as well tell the internet.)
4) its hard to try to start thinkin postmodern when were still in the shift from a modern time to a new time, and even though maybe postmodern time isnt the perfect thing, i think its the best thing for right now.
ok thats all i have to say for now, i feel really stupid
bye
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